1. 13:09 8th Apr 2014

    Notes: 43624

    Reblogged from taeshidiary

    Tags: life

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    ALL DAY ERRY DAY

    ALL DAY ERRY DAY

     
  2. Some more images - with a more urban feel this time.

    1) Freedom Under Surveillance - Photo of a crow against a lab building along the Oxford canal, note the security camera in the top left.
    2) ADHD - The contrast between the town and the gown, found under a bridge along the canal 

     
  3. The Magnum Opus (complete)

    Well here it is folks. The culmination of the last five-odd month’s worth of writing. I should really explain why I wrote this - see I’m not great at the whole “asking out people/getting with people thing”, some success, but not a lot. As a result, I’ve asked out a lot of people, and heard a lot of rejections. So writing was my way of coping with it. By putting it down on the page I felt like I was getting it out of my mind and pinning it down, where it could no longer bother me. So here it is. The Magnum Opus. See what you think.

    ~Alex x

    The Magnum Opus

    First came a lady from a far distant land,
    Whose manner of thinking I tried, failed, to understand
    She inflicted first wound on my fresh hopeful heart,
    Little did I know it was only the start

    After her came a couple, two,
    To whom I payed my foolish due,
    They refused me together, one after the other,
    And went out with compadres whom I had called ‘brother’

    Next there came another attempt,
    Which even I view with utmost contempt,
    A girl I thought pleasant, and easy of humour,
    Spread lies about me, hearsay and rumour

    Fresh from the battle I retired my trials,
    And walked with dejection for overcast miles,
    For months I couldn’t shake the ethereal black cloud;
    It wrapped all around me, a personal shroud

    But time heals wounds, as the proverbs say,
    And to no doubt my mind’s rational dismay,
    I decided to strive, and get out of the pit,
    By the shores of affection I hoped soon to sit

    The next was a wild, crazed shot in the dark,
    Of course I was miles away from the mark,
    Short, sweet and clear the message was given,
    And another from me was effectively riven.

    My heart, in bad shape, had little strength left,
    And my soul was dreadfully, cruelly bereft
    Of anything, approaching a link with some other
    But in spite of this, I tried yet another

    Ah the fool that I was thinking I could reach,
    And a true distant wonder somehow beseech,
    I was lied to (again) and left to discover
    That to refuse me plainly was too much of a bother

    So after all this I sit here writing
    Instead of experiencing something more fun and exciting,
    I still feel the ache on a cold winter’s day,
    Constant feelings of loneliness are here now to stay.

    Some small additions to an old written tale,
    From a cynical person, once fit now frail,
    I courted another feeding dreams in the dark,
    And as always my heart has not escaped without mark,

    Restored to my all, starting anew,
    Catching my eye were a certain fine few
    Who I believed would return my advances,
    Surely by now I would know my chances

    The first I tried was, unknown, bound to another,
    United by that which links the lover,
    Irregardless of this, I forged on ahead
    Thinking she could possibly prefer me, instead

    How wrong I was about this matter,
    Even though I would fawn and flatter,
    She did not desire me, yet one caught her eye,
    For him left her ties, and passèd me by

    Next brief flash of contact, that ignited a blaze,
    And drove my roiling mind to a craze,
    Too bright was the flame, too raging the fire,
    She whisked away like the mechanist’s gyre

    Signal flares into skies confuse those below,
    And for my endeavours all I have to show
    Is being left, once again by the well beaten wayside,
    Affections ebbing and flowing with the pull of the tide

    After this came my desired endeavour,
    That to a higher soul’s standard I could impossibly measure,
    Quiet of smile, but rare in her lustre
    I tried to do away with my pointless bold bluster

    In this I did fail, and in my intent,
    I, too obviously, would not relent,
    Like a dream from morning I put her to flight
    And could not catch up, try though I might

    Yet more tales have occurred my time,
    A taste of loneliness, powerful, sublime,
    More shall be added to my list of blunders
    That still is left without restorative wonders

    A mistake made, irrational choice,
    Silenced wisdom’s knowledge-filled voice,
    Although I experienced my apparent desire
    My heart’s fulfilment was absent, a liar

    And yet after this my bravery grew
    Myself and my dreams, convinced that I knew,
    I attempted another, with a dancer’s allure,
    Of some success I was expectant and sure

    Nativity was the bane of the day
    And to my soul’s expectant dismay
    She left, walked away, with nary a glance.
    I was left alone, trapped, stunned in a trance.

    Back to the present, with a fresh drawn scar
    I overreached incredibly far,
    An image of beauty agreed on by all,
    Politely, yet firmly turned down my call

    So once again I sit here and write,
    And from my heart has gone all the fight,
    Tragedy, success and all in between
    Are nothing to me now but a mad poets dream.

    Returned again, refused by another,
    No relation I had, though she called me brother,
    No existent attraction, bar that of fevered mind,
    More rain-stained solitude is all that I find

    Yet more I add, lights wink out
    I still am wracked with writhing self doubt,
    Lack of knowledge caused this fall
    I really had no chance at all

    A woman who cared for the green growing places
    And a removal of terrible chemical traces,
    Although she to me was ever so fair,
    Her heart belonged to another, elsewhere

    And here it is at last, written, done,
    The night bred darkness finally gone.
    A peace I feel, like never before
    A return to the hopeful heart of before

    This fools game behind me now lies,
    To it’s wasteful twists I say my goodbyes.
    Though I still walk alone, the road is much brighter,
    I’ll always keep moving, forever a fighter.

    A ray of light has broken black shield,
    And now my sword I ever shall wield
    With hope, no need now to hide,
    No lonely break in my purposeful stride

    I leave this work as a record, of sorts,
    A repository for my now well shed thoughts,
    May it stay forever, and all of us remind
    That some chains on our souls are best left behind

     
  4. I also do photography, here are some of my images

     
  5. 10:44 21st Feb 2014

    Notes: 2308

    Reblogged from zohbugg

    twentydunpilots:

the world doesn’t have to end - upbeat, happy sounding songs for when you feel like reveling in your happiness or need your spirits lifted  [listen]


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    twentydunpilots:

    the world doesn’t have to end - upbeat, happy sounding songs for when you feel like reveling in your happiness or need your spirits lifted  [listen]

    Useful

     
  6. 14:23 18th Feb 2014

    Notes: 491506

    Reblogged from sjwhypocrisy

    Tags: yup

    guyfitblr:

    THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN

    • finding someone aesthetically pleasing
    • being sexually attracted to someone
    • being romantically attracted to someone
    • being intellectually attracted to someone
    • Liking the idea of being attracted to someone
    • Just liking the fact that they like you
    • And actually liking someone 

    (Source: wsswatson)

     
  7. 14:21

    Notes: 753570

    Reblogged from sjwhypocrisy

    Tags: dat tension thosmooth customer

    voidheaddd:

    sjwhypocrisy:

    o-dawgtheinvincible:

    sigmarikz:

    certaflyably:

    thirstingaintdead:

    Top 3 phrases that’ll create sexual tension

    1. "Make me",
    2. "oh really",
    3. "is that so"

    "prove it"

    "What’s in it for me?"

    "The Black Death was one of the…

    Amaze

     
  8. I’m so awkward around people I fancy that afterwards I cringe so hard I compress into a black hole singularity.

    And even then I can’t attract anyone

     
  9. 03:26

    Notes: 3

    Reblogged from lovequotesluv435

    lovequotesluv435:

romantic love quotes

    lovequotesluv435:

    romantic love quotes

     
  10. The Magnum Opus

    This is probably my longest ongoing work (it will no doubt be added to over the next few years). Here are the first few stanzas. I’m not going to post the whole thing until I feel its reached it’s end. So enjoy it so far:

    First came a lady from a far distant land,
    Whose manner of thinking I tried, failed, to understand
    She inflicted first wound on my fresh hopeful heart,
    Little did I know it was only the start

    After her came a couple, two,
    To whom I payed my foolish due,
    They refused me together, one after the other,
    And went out with compadres whom I had called ‘brother’

    Next there came another attempt,
    Which even I view with utmost contempt,
    A girl I thought pleasant, and easy of humour,
    Spread lies about me, hearsay and rumour

    Fresh from the battle I retired my trials,
    And walked with dejection for overcast miles,
    For months I couldn’t shake the ethereal black cloud;
    It wrapped all around me, a personal shroud